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  • Writer: dMbOndemand dMbOnDemand
    dMbOndemand dMbOnDemand
  • Feb 14
  • 1 min read

This is a big one. It's Valentine's day and I can't shake one of the darkest corners of head-space I have...


I know that with my paralysis, full intimacy is almost guaranteed not to happen. But at times I wonder if there will ever be a returned intimacy at all.


It has been almost three years since I have had a good kiss. Three years since I have felt and tasted you. Three years since I have had a long hug. Three years since I have held your hand while riding down the road. Three years since I felt you in the crook of my arm while falling asleep and feeling your leg across mine.


I cannot tell you how much I miss intimacy of any degree. Skin, closeness, warmth, reassurance. I miss feeling chosen physically, not just emotionally.


And I don’t know what to do about it. Help.

 
 
 

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