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Forever.

  • Writer: dMbOndemand dMbOnDemand
    dMbOndemand dMbOnDemand
  • Jan 9
  • 1 min read

It’s the strangest thing, I’ve always grappled with the idea of forever. Whether it be in this life or after, I’ve always wrestled with the concept. Except when it came to us.


When I started thinking about forever for us, even in the early days, it wasn’t a big or scary concept and it still isn’t. To me forever, for us, just meant a continuation of everything I cherished about you that day, just in a linear projection forward. In other words, I didn’t grapple with how our future looked nor did I try to fill in all the details, I just committed to it. I just kept cooking the same recipe the best way I could when it comes to my love for you and hoped that the meals came out the same way the next day and the next day and the day after that. Minus a few minor and some major speed bumps, it’s worked so far. So even now, I don’t grapple with what our forever looks like. I just love you the best that I can today and trust that I’ll be able to do so tomorrow and the next day and the day after that.


Forever.

 
 
 

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